The tough days of parenting!

Today was my youngest first day at his new nursery. We started at a preschool last September but both of us decided it wasn’t for us. We found a new fabulous one which based on a farm. Chickens, donkeys, lambs, a walled kitchen garden, fair enough that does it more for me than him BUT,  I would go there if I could. So we headed off all smiles this morning and then it hit. The nerves! His and mine! Mine I guess full of dread that he wouldn’t be happy (he’s a little homebird) and the fact that he would be away from me. After all who looks after your children better than yourself? The only person to dry my child’s eyes should be me!

However of course I put on a huge smile and said what fun the morning would be. He held on tight and then of course the dreaded moment. I had to say goodbye, watch his face crumple and hi tale it out the room! I hate it! I hate leaving my children anywhere. This includes leaving my six year old at school which he loves and adores. Am I being selfish? Please let me some of you feel the same way. I am of course now counting down the hours till I can pick him up where do doubt I’ll be greeted with the news of the amazing things he did today and how much fun he had! Who knew parenting would be this hard?! I'm off to hit the cakes & chocolates!